Monday, January 19, 2009

Tomorrow's Inauguration Day

Wow, tomorrow is the big day... the day that the first African American is sworn in as President of the United States of America. I didn't think that Obama's election campaign and eventual win would have such an effect on me...a truely emotional effect. He really managed to instill some real hope and inspiration in me personally. I only truely hope and pray that he makes some real change...

I feel that I can relate to Obama - because really he's "bi-racial"; whatever that really means. I too have one black parent and one white. I wonder if he's felt the same things that I have in the course of my relatively short life:
  • How does HE identify himself?
  • How much has he struggled explaining his ethnicity; often to strangers who feel that they have the right to ask simply because you look different (not quite black, obviously not white)?
  • At what point in his life did he become truely comfortable with how he defines himself?

I wonder if things would have been different if his wife wasn't black and therefore his children weren't black... Would be still be described in the same way? I noticed a magazine cover, I think it may have been People, with a close up of the Obama family and thought to myself "he looks a lot darker than he actually is... and his wife and children also look darker..." Maybe he's happy to be identified by the majority as black - maybe it's eased some of his own identity issues.

I have often felt that I don't really belong anywhere - not really with my white German family, nor with my black Papua New Guinean family... I'm always looked at as different. But to tell you the truth, I feel more accepted by my black family...

I now answer the question, again often from strangers, about my "background" with one simple answer - I am Canadian, born, raised, and proud. Not that I forsake my roots nor ignore my cultural upbringings (both German and Mundugamore), but because it's easier and true! I think that as my generation ages and the next comes that this response will become more accepted...

Sunday, January 18, 2009

My first blog

So I read somewhere that the vast majority of blogs die off...quickly. I'm going to give my best effort to not let mine die!!

I have come to realize that the passion underlying almost everything I have done is writing. I regularly have thoughts I know I need to get down on paper, or I guess in a blog, so I'm going to give it a go! Although I don't really have a main theme or set of themes at the moment, I'm sure that they will come through eventually...